What Goes Around

I had a bit of a pity party the other night, without any cake.  What kind of loser party doesn't have cake.  I was feeling sorry for myself.  I was letting people's words get to me.  People who said I wasn't any good at something I thought I was good at.  People who told me that I wasn't worthy.  People who said things to hurt me.  I was reliving the hurt of the moment when it was said.  I felt the sting all over again. Then a few days later, Micah and I were getting out of the car in front of the house here.  I saw the neighborhood crazy guy coming on his bike.  So we just waited for him to pass.  And as he passed he said loudly, "And.... you don't matter!"  Micah cracked up.  I also thought it was pretty funny. The crazy guy's words didn't hurt me, but they did make me think.  Why do I let people hurt me with their words?  Why do I put merit on some people's words but not on others?  Why do some words...

I haven't really thought of the name of Planned Parenthood until just now.  As I made it my title here the words just sunk in.  "Planned"  So it seems that an unplanned parenthood is what we are eliminating.  If a child is created without a plan by the parents then they have permission to get rid of it.  And then I think how nothing God creates is without a plan. But what I really wanted to say is that all this talk about baby parts being harvested by Planned Parenthood is disgusting.  The thing that is heart breaking to me is the thought that all the mothers who aborted their babies must be distraught over the thought of maybe their baby being used in this way.  This must bring up a lot of hurt in a lot of women.  Maybe now would be a good time for the church to reach out with words of healing for these women.  This is just one more layer of the loss and pain they must feel.  

Yesterday I started a diet.  There are seven food items you eliminate from your diet for a week and then you bring one back at a time.  The seven foods are:  milk, soy, eggs, peanuts, gluten, sugar, and corn.  I thought that would be pretty easy.  WRONG!  I was okay with my oatmeal with almond butter for breakfast.  It was unsatisfying, but okay.  Then a sad lunch of beans and rice.  Dinner was zucchini.  I was so tired at bedtime.  No energy what-so-ever.  I weighed myself to kind of get a good starting weight.  I did it after dinner when I thought I would be at my heaviest. So this morning I get up and eat some boring oatmeal again and have a fruit protein drink.  I weighed myself and it was 3 pounds MORE then the night before.  And then I had to rush to the bathroom to have loose motion.  Not a good start.  I was again unsatisfied and still hungry and my tummy was rumbling. I ate almonds for a s...

This morning I am feeling sad.  Facebook is making me sad.  My friends are making me sad.  I also feel lonely.  The Supreme Court decision to allow same sex marriage in all states is making me sad.  And seeing so many friends change their facebook photo to the rainbow colors makes me just sad.  This is not a victory for America.  This is a big step in turning away from God.  I don't consider America to be a Christian nation, but it was founded on Christian principles.  But we have turned away.  I am reminded of this over and over as I read the Bible.  The stories of the kings and how many times they turned the country away from God had always had me puzzled.  How could it happen so quickly?  But it wasn't quick.  It was just like we are doing in America.  Slowly making big changes that are against the perfect law that God has set before us.  It is 40+ years ago since we legalized killing unborn babies. ...

Today felt like a Twilight zone episode.  Things were just weird.  I woke up at 2:30 AM and got ready for our plane trip to Charlotte.  There were new ways of checking in and going through security.  Then arriving in Charlotte we had to wait an hour for our luggage to come.  It didn't seem like anyone else was waiting so we kept checking around to see if we were in the right place.  We were told it usually takes 45 minutes.  We waited.  Checked around some more.  Then someone said it took 30 minutes.  Waited some more.  The carousel never seemed to move as we waited.  Then I found another airline employee and asked when the bags would arrive.  She said they already did.  I found our bags in the pile of left luggage.  So what I figure is that we were the only ones stupid enough to check our bags.  Everyone else knows that Charlotte airport has the slowest baggage service so they just had carry-on.  So w...

We are closing on our house today.  No, we aren't buying/selling a house.  I don't even know what it means.  We are packing up our home.  We have a huge pile of give away things.  It feels so good to have our give away be bigger then our keeping pile.  Why do we have so much stuff?  I sadly look at it and see the price of the items we have bought and are discarding.  But the good side of this is that we are able to give things away and bless others.  Some people will be able to use our stuff. We don't know if this is the end of our India chapter.  It was a long one.  It had lots of ups and downs, goods and bads.  We are actually lucky.  Many people leave and don't realize they aren't going to come back.  We at least are considering the possibility that we aren't coming back.  So we can take back to America are precious items.   Maybe this was not just a chapter, but a book.  And the book will have a ...

Today was graduation and the awards ceremony at school.  These always take me back to my grade school years and sitting through award ceremonies.  I remember sitting there wondering/hoping that my name would be called next.  Now don't get me wrong, I got some awards during many of the ceremonies.  But it is that feeling of wanting to be noticed for being good at something that makes me cringe. Awards are great!  And the students who get them really deserve them.  They are getting good grades or are being outstanding at something.  They really do deserve recognition.  I just feel bad for all the others who are pretty good, but not the best at something.  Most people aren't the best.  And some people are the best at several things academically. This year Micah didn't get an award.  But what the awards ceremony failed to recognize is how great Micah is.  He isn't the top grade earner in any of his classes (although if he want...